DAY 7 of 30 Day Yoga Commitment
Things are going relatively smoothly so far (after all its only been 7 days) HOWEVER… there was always going to be bumps in the road, wasn’t there? As I continue, I’ve been noticing all the little aches and pains associated with regular, continuous exercise after a brief hiatus from it. Coupled with a sore, tired body my mind is throwing me for a loop right now.
Since I began teaching on a more regular basis, my own personal practice actually slowed down- I’m sure many new teachers can attest to this. Your focus shifts towards class planning, or the time that you would otherwise be using for personal practice is now taken up with traveling to and from the studio, teaching and in my case heading off to my other job after that. Part of the reason I decided to do this 30 day commitment was to re-instate my yoga habit and to have my body feel GOOD again!
Getting to class is easy enough, it’s working around barriers of pain and fatigue that are the real challenges. I’ve noticed my level of frustration increase greatly, not necessarily in yoga class, but everywhere! In controlled circumstances, such as in a yoga class I can be much more forgiving of my own limitations then I can outside in my everyday life.
I went cross-country skiing (after a Flow class in Whistler, of course) and for the first half it was great. I was loving it, I was open-minded and patient with myself until I wasn’t. I joke around that I’m generally a pretty poor sport, but its the truth! If things aren’t going my way and I’m not picking up on it as easily as I’d like, it’s not fun anymore and I’m certainly not fun to be around. My partner had to witness me having a full on XC-Ski Tantrum. I threw my ski pole and stomped my foot (yes, just like a little kid) and after falling over, had to give myself a time-out in the snow until I cooled off a bit. Luckily I was around somebody trusting, who knows and cares about me. Strangers don’t gotta see that!
The next day I went to Cross Fit and had some trouble with my elbow during a pull-up exercise. This was after a pretty crazy day: being stuck on the Sea to Sky highway for 2 hours due to an accident and missing a work meeting (stress, tears and grumpiness ensued) I was ready for a good ol’ sweaty workout to alleviate the troubles of my day. Once my elbow started acting up I lost my mojo and that same process of frustration, anger and blame came about. I didn’t like my trainer, the gym was too busy, blah blah blah. I tried to externalize all the problems that were bothering me, most of which were only going on in my head.
What I’m taking from this (because sometimes you really DO have to learn the same lesson over and over again) is…. that just like yoga, it takes practice to be committed to something, MORE practice to be good at it and EVEN MORE practice to keep your head up when things aren’t going your way.